Im not sure but sometimes one needs to go beyond close family or friends just to let it out .
I have many conflicting emotions at the moment and having a hard time dealing with them as I’m a emotional chap that has had to cope with mental illness . Who am I kidding as it is always there nibbling at the sides trying to find a foot hold .
Take a look at that last selfish paragraph about me and read on as my own selfishness racks me with guilt.So why should I share this with strangers on a forum ?
I didn’t find the right solution from the Internet.